15.5 weeks post op - Stage 1

It have been a while since I last update this blog. I will try my best to post something each month about my progress of the phalloplasty and my transition.

15.5 weeks post op for stage 1 with no complication. I think I have been really lucky that everything went well for me. I have decided to booked for my stage 2 before Christmas and have my recovery time over the Christmas.

I have been actively reading about people's experiences and getting as much information as possible as the post op care by the team is not brilliant. Honestly, I am little worried and nervous about having my Stage 2 before Chritmas with my GP and Mr Christopher office close for  9 working days. *touch wood* if there is complication and I have to go to emergency room, I doubt they will know what to do with me. So I can only pray that everything will go well like my Stage 1.

My thigh have been healing well and I have start to apply bio-oil or Cetaphil moisturizing lotion. I have been struggling to find a compression garment for my thigh and I end up using a knee support garment for it. My GP have been very helpful on trying to get the right thigh compression garment however to no avail.

Meanwhile for my phallo, it looks great apart from being girth(y).. I was suppose to lose fat on my thigh and I guess I did not do it that well. It is about 16cm/6inch in diameter and 11cm/4.5inch in length. To be honest, I was a little disappointed with the length but I am telling myself that at least I have got a penis now and there are various size and shape out there! I am already lucky compare to some trans-guy which do not have the opportunity to have this surgery. While for the girth, I am planning to get it reduce slightly when I am having the penile implant. I tried to put on a normal condom but it's just too tight. I have asked Mr Ralph and Mr Christopher if that could be done and they have assure me that it could. So I will just wait and see what happen next.

I suppose that's one of the problem with human in general. For trans-man ,we have been looking at all the photos/images and have create a prefect body shape/chest/penis that we want. Lot's of time surgery results will varies and some times people falls into depressing when the ideal body wasn't achieved. I have been watching lot's of straight porn and at times, it does make me feel very sad and depress about the length of my phallo but I just need to get over it! Obviously those guy in porn star have above average penis!!

I can't wait for my stage 2 now that my date is set. Fears and anxiety is taking over me... less than 4 weeks to my Stage 2.